Monday, October 12, 2009

A Little Peek

Scrapbook weekend has come and gone. A time to reconnect with friends, relax, de-stress and decompress from the new responsibilities in my life, catch up on much needed sleep, escape from the crap in my life right now, find some peace, tranquility . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .

not this year.

In an effort to try and not verbally vomit on my estranged spouse in this blog, I'll just admit that I spent Friday night between the hours of 10:00pm and 12:30am sobbing in front of 12 women as I stressed, worried and panicked about the care of my children, a full state away from me. I thank God for mature, kind, responsible members of my church who handled the situation at home. I am embarrassed that they had to deal with the crap in my life, but I am so very grateful that they did.

The number one thing I am learning through this process of separation and divorce? Humility. I have had to accept more help in the last year than I even fully remember. I have had to acknowledge embarrassment as a regular visitor to my home. It is a refining, humbling process. It is hard to want to be strong and independent and yet admit that you cannot take care of it all. I long for the day when I can build my life up again and can repay the kindness of so many with service in return.

Despite the truly crappy beginning to my weekend, Saturday and Sunday morning went smoothly and I was able to complete about 1/2 of the pages I normally accomplish on my yearly trip. That's OK. I am happy to have gotten anything done at all. A huge thank-you to my sweet overachieving ex-neighbor Lisa, who gifted me with a 1/2 hour massage on Saturday night which was the most wonderful thing I have experienced in a long time. There is such power in touch. It was peaceful and warm and comforting. Thank you, thank you.

Here is a little preview of the pages I finished.

Note: I used the word crap three times in this posts. There were other, more colorful words which careened through my head this weekend, but I'm keeping it family friendly around here.
You're welcome.


  1. Gorgeous pages, you are so talented! Sorry to hear the weekend started out bad, but glad you were able to get some time away! You deserve it!

  2. Seriously - your talent amazes me. I have admired your scrap pages for years- ever since the first one I saw!

    Hope this weekend is better.

  3. Looks to me like you got a lot done! I've always wanted to attend one of those weekends with you, but it just never worked out. Seeing all those pages right now would take me months to do. I haven't scrapbooked in a while!

  4. Your pages look beautiful! You are so talented! I am glad you have good friends with which to unload all you have had to deal with. Everyone needs to vent sometimes. Hope you came home feeling a little bit better!